The Ultrasound!!

Hey guys! Sorry I havent posted in forever :( Its been a lovelyyy weekend with the Aaron. We got to go to our first ultrasound!!! I was so so nervous that there would be something wrong (because I have been so sick) but the baby is very healthy. We even got to see its little heartbeat! The due date has been decided August 10th, but due to my size it should probably come before then. Aaron was beyond thrilled and was pretty much bouncing off the walls all weekend. I was just relieved lol.
So besides Dr's stuff we went to Jamestown and Williamsburg. It was so pretty and we got to take the Ferry. Aaron had never been on a ferry before. We got to eat at a nice restaurant,see the pretty carriage horses, and window shop. Sunday I was pretty sick so we didnt do much but stay home and watch Christmas movies. I hope it snows! Ive been dying to see some snow to put me in the Christmas spirit! <3

I Miss Summer

I woke up today (and vomited) but after that I sat on my bed and looked out the window. It was so beautiful outside. The sun was just coming up and there was dew on the grass. It really reminded me of summer. Last summer was one I wont forget. Early hot mornings going for a run, going to class, sunbathing by the pool, riding Cadet. And then meeting Aaron. We had so much fun playing in the pool, going to the beach, to Busch Gardens, the water park, riding Cadet. Ugh why cant it always be summer? Anyways I was thinking ahead to next summer...how different its going to be. Will it be miserable? Being pregnant? Having a newborn in July? Obviously I wont be spending any time in my bikini, but I dont want my summers to change! My life is going to be sooo different. 

No Such Thing As Morning Sickness...its All Day Sickness

Well the last three days have been nothing short of horrible. Morning sickness has kicked me in the stomach. Seems like all I do is vomit- doesnt matter what time of day or what I eat. Had to go to the ER yesterday to get IV fluids which made me feel better for a while. I really hope the sickness goes away soon. Ive had to miss class and i know its only going to get harder.

I am also really worried about the flight to cali. Planes and vomiting are not a good combination....

7 weeks!

How your baby's growing:

The big news this week: Hands and feet are emerging from developing arms and legs — although they look more like paddles at this point than the tiny, pudgy extremities you're daydreaming about holding and tickling. Technically, your baby is still considered an embryo and has something of a small tail, which is an extension of her tailbone. The tail will disappear within a few weeks, but that's the only thing getting smaller. Your baby has doubled in size since last week and now measures half an inch long, about the size of a blueberry.
If you could see inside your womb, you'd spot eyelid folds partially covering her peepers, which already have some color, as well as the tip of her nose and tiny veins beneath parchment-thin skin. Both hemispheres of your baby's brain are growing, and her liver is churning out red blood cells until her bone marrow forms and takes over this role. She also has an appendix and a pancreas, which will eventually produce the hormone insulin to aid in digestion. A loop in your baby's growing intestines is bulging into her umbilical cord, which now has distinct blood vessels to carry oxygen and nutrients to and from her tiny body.

Wow that is A LOT! She even has eyelids!!!  Pretty crazy right? As for me I still have morning sickness, which should hopefully be going away soon :)

A Real Live Baby

Sorry I have not posted for a while. Just been verrry busy! I had class this weekend, which was not fun at all. Aaron went with me. I had a very eye opening experience that day. We were sitting in the breakroom and this lady came in with her new baby. She was talking to us and we told her we were going to have a baby in a few months. To my surprise, she picked up the baby and gave it to me. I had no idea what to do with it. I know they say maternal insticts are supposed to kick in, but they must not be working. Instead of being happy I felt terrified holding the baby and couldn't wait to give it back to its mom. It was just too real for me. I honestly cant see myself with a baby because I am so clueless. Aaron says it was weird for me because it wasn't my baby, but still...
In terms of how I have been feeling...definitely more morning sickness. Not so fun. Also, I have now decided that I don't want anything to do with meat or meat products. Just the smell will have me running to the bathroom. Idk y because I love meat and steak. Guess that is just going to have to wait for a while!!

A new day

Thankfully Aaron and I were able to work everything out :) He knows how emotional I am and we agreed that when im in a mood swing, its best to ignore me. We are not enemies, we are on the same team. I have to keep reminding myself this. Sometimes it feels like its just me against the world.

Today is one of those days I just want to sleeeeep. I have a major test today though in A&P II so sleep will just have to wait. It seems like all I do is sleep, but  frankly I can never get in a good sleep living here alone. Im so paranoid I wake up every hr. There is just so much I need to do...take care of bills, study, get courthouse stuff straightened out because Aaron and I are getting married next weekend. Its a lot. And like I said earlier I just feel alone. I wish I could take some time off from school, but the next semester starts right after this one ends. The only break im going to have is Christmas, and I doubt ill be doing much resting. I need to be careful too with this baby. Im worried me stressing out is going to hurt it.

Before, I was uber excited about this baby. Now I am too stresed to even think about it, and all i can think about is this is not a good idea, and im not cut out for this. I need to get excited again.

Broken Strings

Today was not the greatest day in the world...it started out ok. I was able to tell my madre that she is having a grandbaby and she took it really well...which is shocking. Plus a major weight off my mind. The only problem is the issue of moving. Aaron really wants me to move to NC now, and I understand his point of veiw. He wants us to live together since we will be married and he doesnt want to miss anything to do with the baby. The problem is I really want to get as much school done as possible before baby gets here.

My parents have offered to cover school at ECPI. There is another ECPI down in NC but it is about two hrs away from Aaron. I just think that drive is going to be really hard for me every day, espically being pregnant. Today I vomited during my walk and passed out in my apartment. I really dont see myself safely driving/living on my own much longer.

We have tentatively agreed to me staying here two more months. That would give me 10 more months to finish in NC. So I have been pretty emotional and angry over all of it, but I have finally come to terms with the fact that it is probably going to take me over a year to get my LPN. But i guess the big picture is that it WILL happen eventually and that my baby should come first. Even though its going to be dificult. Right now I need to focus on finishing this semester and fixing things with Aaron. I know I said some hurtful things I didnt mean :(

I LOVE PEANUT BUTTER AND PICKLES!

So I found my pregnancy soul food/comfort food. Peanut Butter and Pickles. Originally, I would think this to be utterly gross, but it is EXACTLY what this mommy2b wants!! Seriously you should try it. No bullshit.
Im really tired because I was just in class for 5 hrs. I cant WAIT for next week to be over! Then I can have a relaxing week to myself..well not really, ill be packing.

I am also excited for the Christmas party Aaron's squadron is throwing :) I think it will be fun and let me meet the new people I will be living around for the next few years. However, I feel kind of self conscious being pregnant and Aaron has already told them....

You know how some people think that pregnancy makes them hotter? Well at first it did. Now....not so much. I feel like an old lady. I cant get over the fact that im going to be a mom, and that it isnt temporary like babysitting. All I do know is im not having another baby for at least four years. YOU LISTEN UP AARON!! lol <3

6 weeks!

Congrats to me I am now 6 weeks preggers! I got my weekly article in the mail and it was talking about how emotional I will be this week. Bahaha I dont think its possible to be ANY more emotional than I am now! So here it is baby at 6 weeks:
This week's major developments: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute -- almost twice as fast as yours -- and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones.

Puppy Therapy

Today was a very ruff day. Well, it didnt start that way. Aaron and I woke up late and went to Bass Pro shop to shop for Christmas presents. Ok it was a tad overwhelming for me because I never noticed how many babies and kids are there. Im slightly terrorized that I am going to be one of those moms pretty soon. After Bass Pro we went to Applebees and had steak. Our waiter was really annoying and decided to hang out with us and talk to Aaron the whole time. How friggin rude?! Im having a DATE with my fiance! Not a man date. Eww.

After that we picked up our purdy pictures at JCP. Then I had to have my puppy therapy lol. We decided to go to the SPCA. We had SOOO much fun! We played with lots of doggies but we did NOT take one home. We practiced good self control. Too bad we cant do that all the time. HA.

To finish off our date night we went to see the movie Jack and Jill. It was cute but really long. And lets just say the movies arent the greatest idea when you are pregnant. Like, you have to use the ladies room every ten minutes and you miss parts!! Its awful.

Then we went home and I had a crying/laughing breakdown for a little over an hr. It was awful. Its like it all hit me at once. Moving, stopping school, getting married, having a baby, being disowned by my family. Ugh it was just alot. Poor Aaron.  On the positive side tomorrow marks 6 weeks and I will post whats going on with baby in my weekly email and post a belly pic! You know its funny, I seriously believe that my belly gets bigger everyday. It just looks different!

im just a tad EMOTIONAL

So today was pretty awesome :) I got to see mehh baby Aaron. We hate a lot of fun. We stuffed our faces at IHOP and went to Petsmart and petted puppies, went grocery shopping, and cooked dinner together. Its all been great. Being pregnant sucks btw. Its like you will be fine and all the sudden you just want to pass out and sleep. I have to eat/nap every hr to "recharge my batteries." Also, im VERY emotional. Aaron and I were watching Fox and the Hound and I ended up bawling my eyes out (during the scene when the old lady gets rid of the fox). I for one, NEVER cry. Especially at a Disney Movie. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???! Oh. Wait. Im pregnant. So thats about all the news I have. Tomorrow marks weeks six!!! This pregnancy is going to fly by :) IDK whether to be scared or happy lol.

Advice, advice, and yet more advice

I feel so overwhelmed and utterly clueless. Everyone I talk to who has kids has so much advice that I have no idea where to start. I think I need a list. Its nice to have help, dont get me wrong, but sometimes it would be nice if someone would just listen, not tell. I just want someone to say yes it sucks but its gonna be ok, and say that yes Valerie you can do this. Ugh. Not ohh its gonna be really hard and a burden for the rest of your life. It really puts a damper on this baby.
And I know Aaron and I are just kids ourselves. We arent in any way ready for a baby. We are doing the best we can to learn what we need to. All my free time is devoted to researching baby advice. Sometimes I find myself daydreaming of all the times I was little and how easy it was. We grow up way to fast. Im not gonna let that happen to my baby, thats for sure.
So on another note I cant believe that its only two weeks till Christmas! Thats freaking crazy. Im pretty excited/scared not gonna lie. I absolutely HATE flying, but at the same time I really want to meet Aaron's family. And of course now that im pregnant, I cant take anything to calm myself on the plane...haha ohh great.

First Day of December!

Cant believe its already December!! It doesnt even feel like Christmas!! Last year we had snow lol. This time next year will be baby's first Christmas. I find that even HARDER to believe lol. So yeah ive been freaking out slightly about motherhood. I just feel really young and inadaquate. I have no idea what I am doing. All I can say is I hope it comes as nautral as my boobs are coming in haha!
So as I was up at 3 am on the computer I came across a makemybaby site. I was like oh cool i wanna do that!! So I uploaded our pics and waited....anddddd O M G please tell me that isnt how our baby is going to look!! I mean how can something so unattractive come from this gorgeous couple? JK.  Now im going to have baby nightmares!! I posted pics so you can laugh at them too :P

Its finally setting in

This morning as I was racing to the bathroom at 5am I nearly screamed at my reflection. I was freaking that I suddenly was getting fat, and then i remembered....I was pregnant. Im not trying to be conceited, im just so used to being skinny. Weight gain has been really difficult for me over the years. Ive always intentionally made sure I was below average weight so I felt good about myself. This whole gaining 30 or so pounds is really scaring me.

I wish that was my only problem. I find it harder and harder to drag myself to class these days. It just breaks me that im not going to be able to finish my LPN and that none of the credits from ECPI transfer. I just hate to have to start over and over again. Ive researched online college classes, but there isnt much there that interests me. I want to feel like im helping people and making a difference. It doesnt help that Jacksonville really doesnt have much college opportunity either....

So yes, that is my rant for today. Maybe im just down today. It sucks living alone and not being able to see Aaron until Christmas. And I dont want to have to go to my first ultrasound alone..its scary.

Shouldnt I be, like, HUNGRY?

So the past few days I haven't had an apetite at all. My belly has that "full" feeling and nothing sounds good at all. Ive been munching on popcorn and rice but that's about it. The only thing i really want right now is fruit. Canalope and watermelon. Nom nom. But of course its winter and its not the season for such things. Sorry baby. Has anyone else ever had this issue??

All that I really want to do is sleeeeeeeeeep. Its really hard when the people that live above me decide to dance and whatnot at 5 am. Seriously thats what it sounded like! Well, I HOPE thats what they were doing. (Shudder) Yeah they dont like me very much because our first meeting was when the police had to break down their door cause we had water coming from our light fixtures. Between that and the killer black mold, I am not a fan of this place. It is trying to kill meh.

I am probably gonna regret saying this, but so far, being pregnant hasn't been too horrible. I guess that depends on your definition of horrible though. Considering ive been near death a few times this year, pregnancy has been the easiest thing to deal with. Sometimes cramps keep me up at night, or i get real dizzy, or have to tinkle every 5 minutes, and wanting to stay in bed all the time, but morning sickness is rare. I am going to enjoy this as longggg as I can :) I am absolutely DYING for my first ultrasound though. I want to see my baby sooooo bad. Then I will actually believe it is there. Haha!!

I was kinda wondering what I should do about my belly piercings? Ive heard some people say take them out but id really hate to do that...plus they got cute ones for baby haha. I want to get the ones with the boy and girl symbol. So I posted a few pics of pregnancy with belly piercings..yay or nay?

Scheduling my first ULTRASOUND!

I be an uber excited mommy today because my first ultrasound has been scheduled for December 16!! YAY we finally get to see the lil sea creature! You know how they say mommy's have a hunch on the gender and all? Well my vote is that its a boy. A very big boy. The only sad part about my ultrasound is Aaron probably has to work that day :( Darn Marine Corp! Im gonna see if they will let me be on the phone so Aaron can hear the baby's lil heartbeat.

Besides all that I have been trying to figure out where i want to have the baby. Aaron is pretty adamant about the hospital, but I would rather have it in a specialized birthing center or at home. He is NOT keen on that idea. I mean I get really nervous at hospitals and I prefer to be alone when im in pain so a hospital just doesnt make much sense for me. Id much rather have a water birth, not one on a tiny hospital bed with my legs in the air and light shining on my hoo ha (shivers). On the downside, Jacksonville really doesn't seem to have the option for anything but a hospital birth, and at that a Navy Hospital. The Navy Hospital website said that they only have 10 beds and that sometimes they have to double up the women in labor in the same room. Yeahhh thats not going to work for me. Toodles!!

So that has also been weighing on my mind. On the more fun side, I have been having fun window shopping with Aaron at Babies R Us. We have decided to go with the Lion King/Safari Theme. Very gender neutral dontcha think?  Im gonna post a pic below :) Oh also, Aaron and I got professional pictures done of us. They were SUPPOSED to be emailed to me but I never got them :( this makes me so sad. However I am supposed to pick up the offical CD on Thursday :) Happy Dance!!!

Lastly, Aaron and I are still arguing over baby names. Ughhh. We decided that he will name the boys and i will name the girls. However, we still have to approve of eachother's choices. So far, that aint working. The closest thing we have agreed on for a boy is Michael Colton and Ivy for a girl. Any suggestions my loving fans? haha

My boring life of getting engaged and....having a BABY?!

Hey guys,
First of all thanks for reading my blog :) Hopefully I will entertain yall haha. This first post is freakishly long so I hope you are sitting down and comfortable :P
I think I had the most shocking Thanksgiving of all. Well at least it was more exciting than YOURS. Haha JK. So,while everyone else was having a lovely or horrible family dinner I spent the day in the bathroom having quality time with Clearblue Pregnancy tests. After five positive pregnancy tests my fiance and I were still in denial so we went to Patient First...two hours later the Dr finally came back to tell us that i was undeniably pregnant. So guess what? IM HAVING A BABY!

Yeah its still sinking in. So Im 5 weeks along and having all the joys that come from having a sea creature in my belly. I get hungry all the time, feel the need to drink a gallon of coolaid for no reason, my exercise consists of bolting to the bathroom, and emotions have taken control of my whole being. Its already put a strain on my relationship with my fiancee :( I hate to stress him out because he has enough to worry about try to support me and a new baby plus finding a home...

Thankfully though, I have an AMAZING support system of my close friends. We have decided not to tell any of my family and only his parents until Christmas. I mean, comon, what could be a better Christmas present than that? And it saves money. Haha just playin.

So yeah a little bit about ME! I am nineteen, almost twenty. I am in school to be a nurse. I would love to work in the ER cause then my life would NEVER be boring. I have a horse named Cadet and he is amazing. He is an older thoroughbred. I am also possibly getting my first jack russell (currently pending). Ive always wanted one. Question for you guys: Do you think a dog is ok to have during pregnancy? Do you think it will be too much work or a comfort? Do you think most dogs get along with babies? Idk just wondering...

Lastly the reason for my title. Well, cause my hubby 2 be is a United States Marine duhhh. And also because I have this gut feeling the baby is going to be a BOY and follow in his Daddy's steps. My fiance and I have decided to let the baby be a surprise!!!!! We think it will make it more special :) And yeah your wondering what will we shop for? Well our baby is going to have safari theme so it could really go either way. We so smart :P

I will post more/better pics later <3 I also have a video blog! Feel free to follow, comment, etc!http://www.youtube.com/user/valliegurl1992?feature=mhee