Its finally setting in

This morning as I was racing to the bathroom at 5am I nearly screamed at my reflection. I was freaking that I suddenly was getting fat, and then i remembered....I was pregnant. Im not trying to be conceited, im just so used to being skinny. Weight gain has been really difficult for me over the years. Ive always intentionally made sure I was below average weight so I felt good about myself. This whole gaining 30 or so pounds is really scaring me.

I wish that was my only problem. I find it harder and harder to drag myself to class these days. It just breaks me that im not going to be able to finish my LPN and that none of the credits from ECPI transfer. I just hate to have to start over and over again. Ive researched online college classes, but there isnt much there that interests me. I want to feel like im helping people and making a difference. It doesnt help that Jacksonville really doesnt have much college opportunity either....

So yes, that is my rant for today. Maybe im just down today. It sucks living alone and not being able to see Aaron until Christmas. And I dont want to have to go to my first ultrasound alone..its scary.

Shouldnt I be, like, HUNGRY?

So the past few days I haven't had an apetite at all. My belly has that "full" feeling and nothing sounds good at all. Ive been munching on popcorn and rice but that's about it. The only thing i really want right now is fruit. Canalope and watermelon. Nom nom. But of course its winter and its not the season for such things. Sorry baby. Has anyone else ever had this issue??

All that I really want to do is sleeeeeeeeeep. Its really hard when the people that live above me decide to dance and whatnot at 5 am. Seriously thats what it sounded like! Well, I HOPE thats what they were doing. (Shudder) Yeah they dont like me very much because our first meeting was when the police had to break down their door cause we had water coming from our light fixtures. Between that and the killer black mold, I am not a fan of this place. It is trying to kill meh.

I am probably gonna regret saying this, but so far, being pregnant hasn't been too horrible. I guess that depends on your definition of horrible though. Considering ive been near death a few times this year, pregnancy has been the easiest thing to deal with. Sometimes cramps keep me up at night, or i get real dizzy, or have to tinkle every 5 minutes, and wanting to stay in bed all the time, but morning sickness is rare. I am going to enjoy this as longggg as I can :) I am absolutely DYING for my first ultrasound though. I want to see my baby sooooo bad. Then I will actually believe it is there. Haha!!

I was kinda wondering what I should do about my belly piercings? Ive heard some people say take them out but id really hate to do that...plus they got cute ones for baby haha. I want to get the ones with the boy and girl symbol. So I posted a few pics of pregnancy with belly piercings..yay or nay?

Scheduling my first ULTRASOUND!

I be an uber excited mommy today because my first ultrasound has been scheduled for December 16!! YAY we finally get to see the lil sea creature! You know how they say mommy's have a hunch on the gender and all? Well my vote is that its a boy. A very big boy. The only sad part about my ultrasound is Aaron probably has to work that day :( Darn Marine Corp! Im gonna see if they will let me be on the phone so Aaron can hear the baby's lil heartbeat.

Besides all that I have been trying to figure out where i want to have the baby. Aaron is pretty adamant about the hospital, but I would rather have it in a specialized birthing center or at home. He is NOT keen on that idea. I mean I get really nervous at hospitals and I prefer to be alone when im in pain so a hospital just doesnt make much sense for me. Id much rather have a water birth, not one on a tiny hospital bed with my legs in the air and light shining on my hoo ha (shivers). On the downside, Jacksonville really doesn't seem to have the option for anything but a hospital birth, and at that a Navy Hospital. The Navy Hospital website said that they only have 10 beds and that sometimes they have to double up the women in labor in the same room. Yeahhh thats not going to work for me. Toodles!!

So that has also been weighing on my mind. On the more fun side, I have been having fun window shopping with Aaron at Babies R Us. We have decided to go with the Lion King/Safari Theme. Very gender neutral dontcha think?  Im gonna post a pic below :) Oh also, Aaron and I got professional pictures done of us. They were SUPPOSED to be emailed to me but I never got them :( this makes me so sad. However I am supposed to pick up the offical CD on Thursday :) Happy Dance!!!

Lastly, Aaron and I are still arguing over baby names. Ughhh. We decided that he will name the boys and i will name the girls. However, we still have to approve of eachother's choices. So far, that aint working. The closest thing we have agreed on for a boy is Michael Colton and Ivy for a girl. Any suggestions my loving fans? haha

My boring life of getting engaged and....having a BABY?!

Hey guys,
First of all thanks for reading my blog :) Hopefully I will entertain yall haha. This first post is freakishly long so I hope you are sitting down and comfortable :P
I think I had the most shocking Thanksgiving of all. Well at least it was more exciting than YOURS. Haha JK. So,while everyone else was having a lovely or horrible family dinner I spent the day in the bathroom having quality time with Clearblue Pregnancy tests. After five positive pregnancy tests my fiance and I were still in denial so we went to Patient First...two hours later the Dr finally came back to tell us that i was undeniably pregnant. So guess what? IM HAVING A BABY!

Yeah its still sinking in. So Im 5 weeks along and having all the joys that come from having a sea creature in my belly. I get hungry all the time, feel the need to drink a gallon of coolaid for no reason, my exercise consists of bolting to the bathroom, and emotions have taken control of my whole being. Its already put a strain on my relationship with my fiancee :( I hate to stress him out because he has enough to worry about try to support me and a new baby plus finding a home...

Thankfully though, I have an AMAZING support system of my close friends. We have decided not to tell any of my family and only his parents until Christmas. I mean, comon, what could be a better Christmas present than that? And it saves money. Haha just playin.

So yeah a little bit about ME! I am nineteen, almost twenty. I am in school to be a nurse. I would love to work in the ER cause then my life would NEVER be boring. I have a horse named Cadet and he is amazing. He is an older thoroughbred. I am also possibly getting my first jack russell (currently pending). Ive always wanted one. Question for you guys: Do you think a dog is ok to have during pregnancy? Do you think it will be too much work or a comfort? Do you think most dogs get along with babies? Idk just wondering...

Lastly the reason for my title. Well, cause my hubby 2 be is a United States Marine duhhh. And also because I have this gut feeling the baby is going to be a BOY and follow in his Daddy's steps. My fiance and I have decided to let the baby be a surprise!!!!! We think it will make it more special :) And yeah your wondering what will we shop for? Well our baby is going to have safari theme so it could really go either way. We so smart :P

I will post more/better pics later <3 I also have a video blog! Feel free to follow, comment, etc!http://www.youtube.com/user/valliegurl1992?feature=mhee